I dont even deserve to live right now.

Why am I acting like this? I don't deserve anyone. I don't even deserve anyone else's love. I'm selfish, I'm rude and I'm being inconsiderate to others feelings. Why do I even bother to breathe anymore. There's too much pressure, commitments, stress I have to go through everyday. Its not even that easy anymore. I really think that I'm depressed and if you can't see that, or acknowledge that I've been feeling uneasy lately then I'm sorry, you don't really know me or you're just that stupid. I can't handle this extra baggage that I'm carrying around. As I'm holding it, it gets heavier and heavier. I wish I was was dead.